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Integration

israel | June 04, 2004

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I just prayed with my entire body.

Jerusalem's version of NYC's Barefoot Boogie is simply Boogie and clubier, larger, and higher energy. I had been in neutral gear for the previous 48 hours, but when I started to get ready to go out, I got really happy and excited.

All of the learning, thinking, praying energy was integrated in dance. I shook the reins of my mind and thanked God in the most basic, wordless, visceral way. The past month of exploration, newness, and divine uncertainty found perches on the internal branches of my body. I gathered in all of the dangling strands and opened my heart. My prayers were answered.

I found a patach in my heart center -- the T-shaped "ah" sounding vowel. The "eh"/segol was in my bowels and the "ee"/chirik was deep near my feet. The shva -- colon ":" -shaped -- suspended between my eyes and above the crown of my head.

Aleph, Ahava, heartopenness
Mem, belly memories
Shin, silenced mind

Every beat, every step, was love -- as is every moment, the Only Moment, of God's great Love. I blessed myself and all around me. I learned earlier today that what you guard/keep energically strengthens over time. I want to guard and keep love.

Some songs returned me, in bliss, to my past. Dancing to Mary J Blige at the GMHC Aids Dance-a-thon. Cheesy Israeli acid house in Haifa during high school. My first Ska show at the Ritz for my fifteenth birthday.

We bless each other when we move with intention, which is inherently graceful. Every form, every openness, is perceived, received, understood because we inherently know Form, and Openness. The dance and the dancer are inseperable.

I turned, in remembrance, in the unscrolling, unfolding form -- a spontaneous zikr, a zicharon of the universe's spining entirety. Left to right like the scroll, like holy languages.

Mattissyahu blew minds.

Posted June 4, 2004 02:21 AM